MESSAGE FOR HIM

since form four i start to know you . Syed Ammar who's the man than i never knew before this . never i thought , i opening up my heart to him . when I've known him, he changed my life from many angles .

 my dear , now we have been together for two years , and have celebrated many memorable occasions together . there are a lot of unbelievably sweet memories that ever happened to me . you are very kindly person, very protective and i like the most about you , you are very comforty . you know how to entertain me and make me happy like a crazy person in whatever situation . Frankly speaking I'm bit reluctant to write all this because i'm not sure if i will get it right or not . this time for your birthday , i feel aggrieved because i can't give something to you for your birthday . no cake for you , no celebrate . all  become not the same as the year before this . at least, i have do something for you by expressed everything in this entry .

 . ~visited pusat sains negara on 15th April . 

you may be surprised where i got this picture . yeah , i love to keep your picture .

On the same date , we declare we are couple on that night only in  the one message . day by day, i get to know you better and we start get to know each other more closely .  when you spend time with me is the one most cherished memory . i miss the moment when we together . seriously :(

I always worry about what will happen in our relationships. I do not want it cut off in the middle of the road. when you're starting to work, when I'm away from you, when i'm not by your side . I ask my self are you will forget me or are you willing to forget me and try to find another girl? 

a lot of negative questions on my mind and now  you have convinced me . i think we become mature to keep all the best possible as we can . we have been by each other's side in all the rough situation all through the time . It's so fulfilling to see how both of us have supported each other at times when we needed each other the most .

are you still remember the first giving me to you ?  Big Apple doughnuts . look yummy but all got eaten by you . 

molten cake . I want to do surprise with this cake. on that time, you call me and said you could not to come. you do not know that I've bought a cake for you. I really mean ask you to come up and lastly I had to tell you that I've bought a cake and want we celebrate together. my plan was ruined and no surprise lastly .

when you form four

when you in form five ..
 now you're getting old, dude .

i want wish you happy belated birthday, may Allah blest you .

i hope all your dreams will become true

i know it's hard to find a love that so true .

it is nice to be with you .

 Thank you for every effort you  make to bring a smile on my face .

Thank you again for all the crazy things you do to make me laugh .

 

sincerely,,

it's like you're my mirror

my mirror staring back at me

i couldn't any bigger

with anyone else beside of me

# if there are grammar mistakes , i'm sorry :)

buat buat tak nampak je la ea .

i bukan pandai bi sangat pun you .

LONELY GIRL

For the first time , aku update blog dalam bilik aku yang pakai wifi yang tak berapa nak laju sangat ni . sangat menyedihkan bila aku tak puasa sekali dengan family tahun ni :( sobb .  pengalaman baru yang aku dapat bila tak dapat puasa dengan diorang . tak best tak beshhh . tak dapat makan sahur sedap sedap , tak dapat makan nasi bila sahur , makanan wajib yang mesti ada kalau nak bersahur kalau tak , tak kenyang perut aku . hari hari kena bersaing dengan manusia lain nak beli makanan untuk berbuka .  aku rindu masakan mak . selama ni aku tak pernah rindu , selalu ajak makan dekat luar adalah . so, aku berpuasa dengan kawan kawan baru aku lah . dengan diorang diorang ni .

friendship :)

lepas dah kenal , diorang ni actually sangat baik 

rutin harian , jalan jauh jauh nak pergi bazar .

nahhh, ni yang kami beli

berpuasa dengan ammar sekali dengan kawan kawan aku time dulu

 berbuka sekali dengan diorang

 sumpah ,, aku rindu moments tu .

 kenangan tu tak akan berulang lagi untuk masa terdekat ni

buat cerita sedih plak kan aku ni .

hanya mampu bergambar pegang makanan , tak mampu nak berlari 

 yang ni aku tak kenal siapa dia and apa nama dia

tengok tengok ada gambar dia dalam camera aku 

aku decide letak jela gambar dia dalam ni

 yang ni aku kenal . 

Pah

budak ni pun nak interframe jugak

 tak sabar nak buka puasa dah ni

duduk dekat sini , rasa macam sekejap je puasa dah nak habis

 berbuka dengan ayah , mak , ieya , mariam and raihan

sebelum nak balik matrik balik

camwhore with mariam

prepare nak tangkap gambar kelas . rela jela even tengah panas and time puasa pakai benda alah semua ni .

candid one

 candid two,,

 candid three

and lastly,, yeay habis .. hasilnya nanti tak tahu macamana , hope aku tak buat muka yang weird dalam gambar tu nanti

p/s : tak sabar nak balik raya nanti lepas balik cuti terus UPS .

birthday pakcik around the corner

CONTINUE...

macam makin tembam jer aku tengok . abaikan *

ahah ,, dah masuk minggu pembelajaran lepas minggu orientasi dah habis .

hari berlalu ,, sekejap je aku dah nak masuk dua bulan duduk dekat matrik pahang  . duduk sini sekejap je isnin jumpa ahad . hari yang paling best mestilah jumaat . of course lah . bila ingat balik , aku benci sungguh duduk sini , sekarang nasib dah okey . dalam kepala tau nak balik . nak balik . itu jer yang aku tahu . . what i mean, aku dah boleh biasakan diri nak hidup dekat sana sekarang . tapi belum seratus percent lagi . tengah cuba ni nak suka matrik pahang tu .  aku kenal erti stress bila belajar dekat sana . faham faham je lah sistem belajar dekat sana . kena siapkan itu ini . sampai masa tidur aku pun terabai .. mula-mula aku homesick jugak lah , kalau mak aku hantar aku balik matrik , mesti aku nangis kat tangga time nak naik bilik . memang macam budak kecik , malu* . tak biasa lagi .

skill melukis diperlukan untuk subjek bio

mengundi buat kali pertama untuk JPP

calon-calon nye

syaza and fifi

fify ni orang terengganu . bila dia cakap dengan orang yang sekampung dengan dia .

 sumpah aku tak faham .

shazaa

datang awal , sebab tak mau balik bilik lambat . lepas tu boleh tido .

tengok jam awal lagi nak balik bilik , alang alang dah bawak dslr ni, baik pi ambil gambar .

lokasi kat mana lagi , satu satunya tasik tepi blok .

                 first time aku pergi kot

even sangat dekat dengan blok aku 

yelah, aku kan budak baik, tahu duduk bilik jer ..haha

it's you

jadi model untuk aku sekejap

nasib dua orang ni gila tangkap gambar

macam mariam dah muka aku

masuk hutan pagi pagi, memang rasa fresh walaupun mengantuk

cantik kan?

daun yang besar gila

 yang penting dapat bergambar bertiga

fifi nak menari ker??

bila happy happy dengan diorang

teringat mir and zira

paling best time puasa .. eh, time buka.. dapat buka ramai ramai dengan kawan kawan .. 

syer makanan ramai ramai .. aww, best

first day puasa, semua kena buka dekat padang 

 kena bawak makanan sendiri

 tikar sendiri, air sendiri , semua sendiri rrr

last gambar lagi 5 minit nak berbuka .

hari tu , aku balik kl .

cantik sangat . rindu :(

and aku pun rindu orang dekat situ .

sebulan lebih tak dapat jumpa, akhirnya jumpa dia .

bila lah lagi i nak jumpa you . syed ammar .